Thursday Thirteen #15

Thirteen Things I'm proud of.

After the hugely negative TT last week, I decided to do something I very, very rarely do. In fact, I do this so rarely that anyone whi knows me will be shocked and surprised by this post. I'm going to 'toot my own horn'so to speak. This TT is 13 things about myself that I am actually proud of, or think I do well!!! (my apologies to anyone who actually keeled over in shock!)

1...I can do a suduko puzzle in under 3 minutes. Not the complex ones, they take about 10 minutes, but the ones where you only have to find about 45 numbers out of 91.

2...I am a DAMN FINE cook. Its a skill that I haven't appreciated much lately, but since I've started cooking more, I can see why Phil wanted to marry me!!!

3...I am raising an amazing lil boy, and for the most part, I've done it myself. My ex hasnt really put much effort in until recently, so I take full credit for it, and just lately he really has been doing me proud.

4...My memory is damn near photographic. If I've read it, or written it, I'll remember it.

5...My mind is so open that I expect my brains to fall out almost daily. I consider this a good thing, thou some people think I'm a touch too permissive!

6...At work, thou I'm not sure I'm really proud of it, there are only 2 people that staff will go to before me. I'm actually an asset to my workplace, that part makes me proud. The part where I'm dealing with the staff's issues just makes me irritated!!!

7...I am actually a good friend. I can be a nasty b***h, however, for my true friends, there's nothing I wouldnt do.

8...I'm a low maintainance person. I don't need that much imput, I kind of tick over by myself. Thats not to say that I don't need some sort of human contact now and then, but other than that, I'm realatively independent and have been know to go weeks without seeing anyone other than my ex and my son without going completely insane!!

9...I am always learning new things. I cant seem to stop myself. I just cant help myself, be it something that just sparks my imagination, or something I have to 'Google' for my son because he wants to know how aeroplanes stay in the sky!

10...I cross-stitch. A lot, and well. I tend to keep that one to myself, mainly because I am really not art-inclinded. But when I cross stitch it doesnt seem to matter that even my stick men aren't convincing!!

11...I'm competent and capable. If there's something that I need to achieve, and I don't know exactly how, I'll simply find out and then do it. It's something that I am really, really proud of at the end of the day as its something I want to pass onto my son, and as its a trait I already have I reckon I'm half way there!

12...I'm articulate enough and well-spoken enough that no-one every believes me when I say that my father's a farmer. And not in the 'gentleman farmer' sense, in the sense that I too have stuck my hand up inside a sheep! But no-one ever believes it, no matter how many times I say it!

13...I got thru this list. That really makes me proud because it's not something that comes easily to me, and it's taken at least an hour, but I got thru it, and am now going to have a fag and a coffee before I post it, just so I have something to moan at myself about!!








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Friends, feelings and other stuff!

Not sure on a title yet...........give me a minute!

Today has been a special day. Me and my boy are still in our jammies (its only 16:30) and have spent the whole day together. Always something that makes my day the best it could possibly be. But, on top of that, I got to read the responses on my TT. Its not often that I open myself up like that, and I can say, without a doubt, that I didnt do it lightly, or easily. There are people who read this blog that I'd rather not let into my head, because nothing they have done even slightly allows them the right to that, but as I am determinded to maintain a friendship with someone who played a pivotal part in my life, I have to accept that the people close to him will come here, and read it, and hope that it means that my life is falling apart in some way. Nevertheless, I took a risk, just because one person out there doesnt understand what goes on with me, doesnt mean that I should shut everyone else out of the more chaotic parts of my life. To have such thoughtful, and inspiring comments, which I read over my morning coffee (a time when I am definately not at my best) really made my day. If nothing else nice had happened today, I'd have still had a glow of contentment about myself.

But other nice things happened. Cuddles and snuggles on the sofa with my lil man. A phone call that set my pulse racing, and put a smile on my face. A visit from Amy and her lil girl...who was also still in her jammies, so an inpromptue jammie playdate! A postcard from one of my oldest friends, with a picture of her and my boy on it. A LIE-IN until 9:30!!! A glimse of what my life is becoming, as opposed to what it has always been. I hate to say it but I think I'm actually getting a life worth envying, rather than a life no-one wishes on their worst enemy.

And a random note, you will notice the lack of posting about Valentines. At the risk of offending millions of people, it is a highly over-rated holiday and something that I really find a little crass and over commerciallized. So therefore, thou I did bake on the day, cos that is a tradition I will keep, I gave chocolate brownies to Graeme, as I know he needs the chocolate more than anyone else in my life!!!!!!

Thurday Thirteen #14

Thirteen Things I've discovered about myself in the last couple of months.Todays TT is a personal one, which is a touch unusual for me, as I'm such a private person, but then, its probably unhealthy for me to be and I'm trying to grow as person!!!!

1…It is my natural reaction to be a cold hearted b***h before anything else.

2...I am incapable of seeing myself as others see me, even a little bit!

3...My thoughts and feelings are so deeply buried, when my friends try to talk to me, I'll lie about them (the thoughts and feelings, not the friends)

4...When I come accross as confident its actually because I am the exact opposite, and am lying to myself.

5...When someone's nice to me, I automatically wonder what they want from me, or assume they are lying.

6...I am nearly completely unable to accept a compliement.

7...Whien I'm feeling lonely, I will deliberately unplug my phone, turn off my mobile and pretend to be out, just incase a friend actually rings.

8...If one of my friends needs something, anything, I will do everything in my power to help them get/achieve whatever it is. But I will NOT accept the same back.

9...When I'm feeling a deep emotion about something, I will just bury it until its no longer a deep emotion.

10...There's far too much in my past that I havent dealt with yet, and it affects the relationships that I build today.

11...When it comes to my son, there is nothing I wouldn't do, no-one I wouldn't hurt to keep him safe. The same goes for my family, and the friends I consider family.

12...I'm outspoken, but never about the important stuff, just about the little things.

13...Far too much of this list is negative, and I really need to deal with that!!!!!




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Drunken Pwincess

Well, its true, I found the Vodka in my cupboard and accidently drank it.

I've decided that there is nothing worse than being drunk and alone. I have huge amounts of hyper-ness (or frisky-ness!!!) that could be shared, but tonight I'm on my own. Pretty much like every night, so you'd think I'd be somewhat used to it by now, but then, every now and then, it hits me. I may have the most beautiful son in the world, and a huge number of friends, but my true friends, the ones I will bare my soul in front of, they are few and far between, and not a single one of them is avalible right now.

Never mind, I guess I'll go to bed and read this in the morning and cringe!

I know...I'm a disappointment to my public!!!!!

Sorry, but I am in the strangest mood, and when you think that I haven't updated my blog in ages, I've had a lot of visits just lately.

I'm so sorry for ignoring all you people who sit on the edge of your seats, waiting with baited breath, for the next installment of my oh-so-exciting life. Honestly, I really wasn't thinking of the impact that my neglecting you could have, to the point where one of my visitors stayed AN HOUR...perhaps hoping that I would update. Alas, I did not, for ALL my Laurell K Hamilton books were returned to me last week, and I'm sorry, but they need re-reading!!!!!!!!!

I did want to start posting on things that were personal to me, things that were all deep and meaningful and stuff, but frankly, this particular blog is mainly for light entertainment, and stress and ranting obviously, but mainly its light and fluffy, and I don't really want to take that away, also, if I do feel a need to talk about my feelings, I'm gonna do it anonymously!!!!! That's the whole reason that I still keep a diary almost daily.

In other news, ummmmm, yeah, a WHOLE lot of nothing again. Between work and my addiction to reading, I haven't even switched the computer on this week apart from when I popped it on for Phil to use. I lead such a full and rewarding life don't I? I've even started drinking Horlicks!!!!!!

TACKLE IT TUESDAY

Cos I'm finally back to tackling things!!! I'm not quite sure why I got out of the habit, but I'm back into it with a vengence!!!!

I have this big plan to redecorate my son's bedroom for his 6th birthday. Its not till July, but still, I needed the place tidy in order to get an idea of what I can do. He has too many toys, and his room is not used to its best, but all of a sudden today, I felt a need to deal with it all. I AM MAD. So here it is

This is his bookcase. He likes books as much as me, and I have happily spent far too much money on making sure he has books that he likes, that will help him learn to read and that are fun. It did look like this...

And now...it looks like this...

His toy and clothes cupboards were utter madness, spilling out onto the floor, as only a small child looking for that 1 piece of lego he had 20 weeks ago for 5 minutes can achieve...

And now they look like he is a human child instead of a small howler monkey!!!!

He also had an additional pile of toys hidden behind his door...

which soon went away with a little hard work leaving...

SPACE!!!!!!!!!

Oh, and I made his bed all pretty too...

What amazes me the most is just how many toys he has. He's only 5. I think that people think I don't let him play or something so keep buying him toys!!!! I'm going to have to go through all of them before July just so that I can fit them into a space smaller than a people carrier!!!!!!

Thats it for now. I have other news, but it doesnt need to go in this post!

My life is just a lil bit interesting!

honest it is, it really is. I just spent 3 HOURS on my balcony, freezing my ass off talking about sex, drugs and rock and roll with my very straight but very sexy neighbour (lets see how long before the rumours hit my street!!!!LOL) It really was immense fun and I recommend it to anyone. I also got to see my lover in passing, who knows, maybe one day, soon I hope, he'll have an evening where he is allowed to carve out an hour or two for me. I live in hope eternal. And need to take out stocks in Duracell I reckon, I AM the reason they are still in business!!!!




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I walked in to work twice today. Both times I didnt stop long enough to hear about the woes of the staff. Even I was impressed with myself. Though I'm not doing so well as you think. I only left as quick as I did because....wait for it........I DONT CARE ANYMORE.





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I've spoken to about 90% of my friends today, for various reasons and various different levels of chaos in their lives. On the plus side, mine is going fine so thats actually kinda nice!!!!




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Thats about it I reckon. I was gonna talk about my feelings, as I do actually have them, despite the fact that I appear to merely have a black hole for a heart. But then I got thinking, I can bore you all to death with them tomorrow instead, cos right now, I'm too hyper to discuss D&M stuff!!!

Night all, I'm off to do a little stalking!!

I should not be allowed to get this bored

cos just look at what happens when I do!!!!!

The Ultimate Blog Party March 2-9

A little random, but fantastic!!!!

I just found out about The Ultimate Blog Party and it sounds FABULOUS.

From what I can tell, its basically exactly what it sounds like. A week long blog party. A chance to interact with as many other bloggers as possible, and to meet new friends and so on and so forth.

Just below my archive links in my sidebar you'll find an invitation button. I have a feeling it links to the same place as the link in this post. Theres prizes and other stuff as well..........its sounds like so much fun, so expect some party-worthy changes around here soon!!!!

D'OH, I FORGOT TO BLOG AGAIN!

But I have a REALLY good excuse or two...

Number one is work. It's gotten so very very bad that I can't even walk in there without feeling my blood start to boil slowly. It just gets me so worked up at the moment, because its the sort of place where we're expected to cope, regardless of what the Head Office, or the staff choose to throw at us. If I had an option, I'd resign tomorrow. But I don't. So, Graeme can now relax cos I aint going anywhere for at least the next couple of months!

Number two is Waterstones. It is a beautiful, beautiful shop. HOWEVER, they should never EVER EVER be allowed to do a 3 for the price of 2 deal on Tess Gerritsen. I have new books!!!

Number three is the HUNDINGER of a cold I have right now. I feel like s**t. Ah well, theres nothing I can do about it except grit my teeth and carry on while dreaming of sleeping!

Thats probably all of the good excuses I have, the others are simply laziness and lack of anything exciting going on!!!!!

Thursday Thirteen #13

Thirteen Things I should cook more often.

An odd one today, because I'm hungry, I'm starting to realize just how much I miss cooking for people, and, trying to pick a topic for my 13th 13 was far more difficult than it should have been!!!!!! Happy TT all!

1...Lasange....is there ever a point where you've eaten too much when it comes to this? If there is I havent found it yet!

2...Devil's food chocolate cake.....moist, dark, rich and oh so very delicious! I dont often eat cakes that I've baked but with this one, I have to be careful that I dont eat the whole thing!

3...Bread.....whenever the world gets too much I bake bread. Theres something about the smell of it baking, and then, spliting open a warm roll fresh from the oven and putting REAL butter in it that makes everything alright with the world.

4...Sweet and Sour Chicken and Rice.....One of my ultimate favourite 'foods-from-a-jar' (at least the sauce is) quick, easy and so so yummy!!

5...Sausage, Mash and gravy....comfort food, without a doubt my definate comfort food. If I have had a bad day, I climb into my fuzziest jammies and curl up with mashed potato!

6...Egg and Bacon Sandwiches. Of course, I dont mean a healthy sort!! I mean hot, fresh baked bread, sliced as thickly as I can get away with, slathered in real butter, with 4 rashers of well done bacon and 2 fried eggs, with runny yolks, covered with ketchup or brown sauce. I'm so hungry now!!

7...Pizza. Its one of the few 'fast' foods that I will actually cook from scratch. I use what started life as a variation of a pasta sauce for the topping, because I personally love a well covered pizza, as well as making the base as 'deep-pan' as I can!!!

8...Potato Salad....mainly because when I make one it has things like cold chicken, apple, raisans, celery, cucumber, mustard and other things in. Its one of those things I make when I have random things left in the fridge!

9...Steak Pie.....I will admit that I am a bad bad person and I dont make shortcrust pastry...I just cant...I make suet pastry. I'll make a stew, and cook it for about 12 hours until its all so tender and, well, just really nice, and then I'll have stew and dumplings one night, and a steak pie the next. Fattening, unhealthy and so very fullfilling!

10...Chocolate Fudge Cake....Theres really no reason to cook this anymore, cos it's just me and the boy..........but I do love it.

11...Fry-ups....I love fry-ups, but I love them best when I cook them! I wont eat one when I'm out for breakfast anymore, but I will cook one on Christmas Morning every year.

12...Roasts.....I love good, old-fashioned, simple food, the roast dinner being one of my favourites. The problem is that the boy isnt too impressed by them, so whenever I cook a roast, I'm cooking for just me. I cant really justify it, so my cooking of roasts has dropped to once a year too!

13...Fruit Crumbles....as above, good, and simple food. And the one dessert that I will both cook and eat on the same day, with fresh single cream!!!

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Random musings, as I can't really be arsed to blog properly!

First off, a comment on the song. Its a song called 'Do It Anyway' by Martina McBride, and it's fast becomming my very own personal anthem! It is stunning!!!!

In other news...............




ummmm............




hang on a minute..................




there must be something...............

D'oh! Short of my son's eye appointment tomorrow, my lack of a babysitter for tomorrow night, my increasing frustration with my neighbours and other animals (such as Emma.......really been pushing my buttons today) and my lovely neighbour Amy, who has a thing for cat strap-ons, thats all I have to report!!!

Enjoy the song!!

My life is very dull!

Despite the title I do have a little bit of good news. I managed to go 14 1/2 hours before I absolutely had to have a cigarette. YAY ME! I do want to give up, but I'm not quite ready to, but still, I'm proud of myself (well, hell, someone has to be!)

Oh and I found this site called Widgetbox. It's actually quite fantastic. It's a place where you can find all the widgets for blogs in one place. It rocks!!

And, for anyone who wants to know, the MP3 on the post below, is POISON by GROOVE COVERAGE......and it is stunning!!!!! I spent most of the night rocking to it all by myself.

Test Run

Opps

some wacky things may go on here for a while, I accidently screwed up my template! D'OH

I found this over at Taking the Scenic Route to Joy, and thought it was a giggle!

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and alot of the songs fit with the setting.

Opening Credits: Leanne Rimmes - But I do Love You
Waking Up: Lee Ann Womack - I Feel Like I'm Forgetting Something
First Day At School: Garth Brooks - Standing Outside the Fire
Falling In Love: Shania Twain - I Aint no Quitter
Fight Song: The Wreckers - One More Girl
Breaking Up: Miranda Lambert - Between You & Your Memory
Prom: Garth Brooks - That Summer
Life: Garth Brooks - She's Gonna Make It
Mental Breakdown: Shania Twain - UP! (LOLOLOLOLOLOL)
Driving: Brooks and Dunn - She's the Kind of Trouble
Flashback: Garth Brooks - Longneck Bottle
Getting back together: Carrie Underwood - Crazy
Wedding: Shania Twain - Forever and Always
Birth of Child: Amy Studt - Misfit
Final Battle: Brooks and Dunn - Tonight the Bottle Let me Down
Death Scene: Martina Mcbride - God's Will
Funeral Song: Martina Mcbride - I Hope You Dance
End Credits: Emerson, Lake and Palmer - Closer to Believing

To my Parents

Happy 18th Anniversary.

Not for you two, you have been together far longer than that, but for us. It was 18 years ago today that I moved in with you permanently, and for that I am forever grateful.

I know we have our ups and downs, and I know we all annoy each other like crazy sometimes. Despite all that, I wouldn't change a moment of the last 18 years for absolutely anything.

Being with you has shaped my life, has changed the path I was on to one that is brighter, happier and contains more hope than you can imagine. And I thank you for that.

You guys truly saved me, made my life bearable. Without you, I would be nothing, instead I am your daughter, and so proud of that fact. If I hadn't moved in with you all those years ago, I know exactly where I'd be right now, and it's not somewhere where I would be able to be accepted into society. But I am, because of you.

The debt I owe you is huge, is insurmountable, and all I can do to repay you is live my life as you have shown me, make you proud of me, bring my child up how you brought me up, not how I was brought up before.

I couldn't imagine my life without you, you are both by far the most influential people in my life, and among the most important.

I love you both very much, and thank you for all the effort, time and love you have given to give me a chance at a life.

Well I survived!

It's true, I survived my birthday!!!

It was lonely, and dull, and boring, and HASSLE FREE! YAY!!! For about the first year I can actually remember, not one single crappy thing happened!!!

Thats actually about all my news, on account of the fact that I barely leave the house, am incredibly short on money, and have no life.

Ah well, and I had to pop this song on, when I was pregnant Phil would play this over and over in the car, and for some reason I wanted to hear it again!

New Year, New Things, and so on and so forth

Teeny-tiny post today.

I have added to my side bar today. It's a widget powered by Library Thing, a wonderful site that lets you catalogue your books online. I just went through a couple of my favourite authors and the books I own by them, and my list totals 103 already!!*blushes*.

So, anyway, this thing I've added shows a random selection of books from my library, which frankly, I'd recommend to anyone who enjoys reading!!!

Thats it for now...Apart from a prewarning for anyone trying to get in touch with me tomoro...I will be offline, my land line will be unplugged and my mobile, thou it will be on for the school just incase, will not be answered or replied to unless it is the school. This is not because I'm being unsociable, but because I don't want to talk to anyone tomoro!!!!! Anyone who knows me will understand!

Thursday Thirteen #12

Thirteen Random facts about me.

1…I DETEST mushrooms. Even the smell of them makes me ill.

2...I have really small feet. (Well, I did say random facts!)

3...I can read a 400 page book in approx. 3 hours.

4...I can play the Piano (Grade 5), Clarinet (also Grade 5) and every member of the Recorder family (again at Grade 5).

5...I have only cried in front of 4 people since I was 7.

6...I'm actually far more intelligent than my job, mannerisms and character convey.

7...My English Lit 'A'-Level result was the highest in my college, and I slept thru half of each exam, still managing to produce over 14 handwritten sheets of A4 for each exam and my coursework (2 essays, one on sympathising with the character of Stanley in 'A Streetcar Named Desire' and one exploring the impact that being childhood outcasts had on Jane Eyre from 'Jane Eyre' and Heathcliff from 'Wuthering Heights' as they reached adulthood and took their places in society) took me a total of 12 hours to complete.

8...My greatest achievement in life will always be my son, even if I went on to impact the world somehow, it would still be my boy.

9...If there's a big-ass spider in my house I have to get my mother over to catch it.

10...I have a really, really high pain threshhold.

11...I have discussed parts of my childhood with only 2 people. Neither of which I turned to when I had to face my biological mother in November.

12...If I can do it myself I will. I will only turn to people if I have no other choice.

13...I found this list really, really hard to write!




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