'Laxing' girlie

you know how sometimes you just need to do something to relax? Some people would have a drink, others a joint, some would watch TV, some would listen to music..........not me however....

While up the shop today, I decided to splurge and buy some sausages, bacon and eggs. Once the boy was in bed, I was wound up so I did the only thing that I knew that would calm me down from the top of my head to the soles of my feet...........I BAKED........bread at that......then had hot crusty bread, with real butter, sausage, bacon, and egg.............. HEAVEN ON A PLATE.

Now I'm relaxed (to a degree, theres still enough going on deep in my head to make me just a little touchy...........*please note*.........this is kinda an understatement).......but there is something going on in my head which I am glad about. I'm finding my way back to me. This sounds like a good thing for just about anyone in my life.......actually, its not, cos me is less tolerant, more assertive, and less likely to 'shut up and put up'. Mum's already pissed at me for being alittle more like myself! The thing of it is, while I was with Phil I took a LOT of shit that I shouldn't have. For someone with a strong sense of self, I just rolled over and took it. I always PROMISED myself that I never would from anyone else.........not any of it...........I promised that if it looked like the past was repeating itself, even if it wasn't, then I would stand up for myself..................obviously, I actually ignored this pep talk to myself, as there have been many instances of taking things that I shouldn't, from all sorts of people in my life, friends, family, even my son's been getting away with murder!

So, please, if anyone thinks I'm putting up with things that I shouldn't........kick me up the ass........PLEASE!!!!!!!!!