Random

Its been a really odd week again this week......

Although all I ever seem to do is work, do housework, and pass my husband like ships in the night, it all seems quite chaotic!

But I have the weekend off, which is inredibly awesome. Me and my boy are going shopping tomoro to get daddy some awesome birthday pressies, and are then shopping for new christmas decs. Every year, we add something new. We still use the stuff that Phil and I bought for our first christmas together, and as this is our 10th one together, we are going to go a little mad this year (at least I am). It may not be part of MY religous beliefs, but I see no reason not to have LOTS of tinsel and presents!!!!

I know how dull all this is, and thats ok with me, cos thats my life. And I'm not ashamed that I have barely anything going on, and nothing going on that anyone really wants to hear about.......baby steps and all that!

My life is incredibly dull...

...and this is why I don't blog anymore!!! I was wandering around work wondering what to blog about and I worked out how my life goes.....

My boys (they are my world, but frankly, who else is interested in Phil and Edwards day-to-day apart from me?) I love them to the ends of the earth and back, but there really isnt anything much to say!
My family....least said and all that!
My job........there may not be enough words, but even so, deadly dull!
Housework.........endless housework!

Thats it. That is my life. I am dull!!!! But I'm cool with that, dull and ordinary are all good!

Change

I haven't blogged for ages, I know this, but I'm hoping to change all that.

It occured to me that I always try to change but I never really manage to. Every week, I'm going to get fitter, lose weight, be healthier, and so it goes on. In a rare introspective moment I realised that although I have grown up, I'm still experiencing the same issues and insecurites that I was 10 years ago. I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do about it, but as a person who doesnt deal with things but just buries them, I'm thinking that actually getting some of the words out might be helpful. I've spent a lot of time and money on trying to change without really putting my heart into it, so I'm going to try a different tack and not spend the money but to actually really WANT to do it. I know myself welll enough to know what my issues are, and where they stem from, but because the life I am in right now is so comfortable, I take the lazy route!

I knnow few people are interested in this, and that is all good with me, cos that gives me license to be honest, and to say things that I wouldnt say to actual people.

We'll know if its working if I manage to post at least one update this week!!!!