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Its been a really odd week again this week......

Although all I ever seem to do is work, do housework, and pass my husband like ships in the night, it all seems quite chaotic!

But I have the weekend off, which is inredibly awesome. Me and my boy are going shopping tomoro to get daddy some awesome birthday pressies, and are then shopping for new christmas decs. Every year, we add something new. We still use the stuff that Phil and I bought for our first christmas together, and as this is our 10th one together, we are going to go a little mad this year (at least I am). It may not be part of MY religous beliefs, but I see no reason not to have LOTS of tinsel and presents!!!!

I know how dull all this is, and thats ok with me, cos thats my life. And I'm not ashamed that I have barely anything going on, and nothing going on that anyone really wants to hear about.......baby steps and all that!

My life is incredibly dull...

...and this is why I don't blog anymore!!! I was wandering around work wondering what to blog about and I worked out how my life goes.....

My boys (they are my world, but frankly, who else is interested in Phil and Edwards day-to-day apart from me?) I love them to the ends of the earth and back, but there really isnt anything much to say!
My family....least said and all that!
My job........there may not be enough words, but even so, deadly dull!
Housework.........endless housework!

Thats it. That is my life. I am dull!!!! But I'm cool with that, dull and ordinary are all good!

I am so rubbish!

I really am. I never update this anymore...I really, really should. Every day I think of something that I want to blog about...and really random things like toilet roll (it made sense at the time) to current events. Its just that when I get home, and have dealt with the boy, and am all sorted out ready to sit for a bit, I'm so tired I can't remember what I wanted to talk about!

So many things have been happening in my life, its all been a bit mad. Despite that, something tells me that soon I might need to be back in the habit of putting all my crazy on here...that way I've done a spot of venting and all...so I might actually start posting regularly...I'm not promising this time thou...cos that was a lie when I said it before!!

Wednesday Weigh-In

Tonight was weigh-in night for my Slimming World group. For some reason, every week, I spend my Wednesday full of fear. I sit and think about everything I've eaten all week, what I should have walked away from (chocolate spread this week, treat sized Crunchies last week) and then I panic about having put weight on. I worry about what I've done that I shouldn't have, and what I haven't done that I really should have (exercise falls into this category most weeks).

The thing of it is, I only started this whole thing on the 30th July. That means that I have only been doing it for 13 weeks. I have lost 2 stone and 1.5 lbs in that time. That's 29.5 lbs. That's 14.5 bags of sugar. That's a hell of a lot of weight to lose. So, realistically, if I did put on a pound or even two, how much difference would it really make. As long as I continue along this path, as long as I stick to the positive changes I have made in my life, its all gonna be good. This doesn't stop the fear though, or the paranoia.

All this stress is ok though. At the end of the day, I've already dropped 2 dress sizes, so my self confidence is constantly rising. I'm fitter (a little bit anyway). I'm healther. I'm a better example for my son. Once I lose my weight, I am learning to swim. Its actually quite awesome. The only thing ow will be sticking to it, and not giving in to my small stash of 'emergency Mars Bars'.

Insert something clever or funny here...I'm too tired to think of anything!

I have had a beautiful day today. Because of the hours I work I only get 2 full days a fortnight to spend with my boy these days. Today was one of them. We started the day with a swimming lesson, which he loves, and I hate. I have a fear of swimming pools, I can't swim, and I hate the humid, horrid atmosphere in the pool area. So, as any good mother would, I went and watched my boy diving into the deep end of our local pool while sweating like a pig and freaking out incase he drowns. This is my least favourite part of my weekend with him! Then, all we did was come home and mong out with a DVD, and his crazy bones. It was the coolest Saturday I have had for a long while.

Tomorrow, we have a similar plan, unless its as nice as it was today...if the sun is shining then we are going out!!

That really is all my news...thou I did empty my loft and my shed...I'm excited by that, but I could see how no-one else would be!

LOVING the wireless

seriously...why have I never had wireless before???? I'm loving being sat on my bed and online too. Admittedly I have to take the puta back downstairs in a minute to do more cleaning...but still...very cool to have wireless. My next project will be going online on Animal Crossing...cos I love that game and the kids accidently deleted my years worth of playing...I need to steal some fish and bugs!!

Other than that I am not quite sure why I'm blogging...I've had such a dull day...I got up, went to work, came home, and started the housework. That's it. I still need to get a life....can you buy them these days??? Oh well, if something exciting does happen I'll just have to blog again!

Check the new rockin' blog!

Its been a while since I revamped my blog, so it was one of the things that ended up on the list of things I wanted to do as soon as I got back online.

While revamping, and hanging around, I realised how funny and interesting I used to be...now I just work too much! But this will change...I am determined to blog more, and start TTing again, and my Tackle it Tuesdays...cos frankly my house could do with it!

For now, I'm just gonna go and actually do some housework now, cos I've been on here for far too long...or maybe I'll surf for cool widgets!

RAHH...I'm back online!!!!

'I am back online...I am back online...yay me...yay me!'

That's actually about it at the moment!!! I'm full of cold...not just any cold...the boy has given me man-flu. I spent the evening letting Phil run round for me...getting me coffee, medicine, a blanket...I may have milked it a little bit...but only a little bit, I truely feel like shit!

I also have new hair...I know, not that exciting...but I'm about rusty on the whole blogging thing...I wanna update my template and all sorts of other things...I'm getting there!

I am alive,I promise

I know I haven't blogged for forever, ad I intend t start up again....as soon as my lappy i fixed and I've paid my phone bill ( I know, I'm a bit rubbish) but theres been so much happening, and I've wanted to blog...but I can't...and I'm sorry.

I know I only have one reasonably regular blog reader (Hi Dave)...but I don't care...I will still tell the world things that I am sure they never wanted to know...I promise!

I should blog more

I know I should. To be fair I have been busy, busy, busy, and not with anything remotely interesting, but I should make the time to blog...

The thing is, I think of all these things that I should be blogging about, all these interesting, witty, intelligent things. Then I get home, sit down, and my brain just stutters a little and dies. Then I pop my headphones in and dance around a little...then I play Animal Crossing for a couple of hours and sleep like the dead. Thats it, thats my life.

Does anyone want it????

Seriously, although my boy brings me more joy than anything ever could, I still have a 5 year old. And he's very 5 at the moment. Work, which is something that I do well most of the time, is also a soul-sucking hell hole that makes me want to cry sometimes. My alone time, whist precious and important, is a bit too much just lately. I mean, its one thing to spend some time alone, and another to spend a minimum of 10 hours a day, 7 days a week on my own. And thats all I have in my life. WOOHOO...Please find said life on ebay, all bids welcome!!!!

In other news...nothing...I mean...NOTHING.

I NEED HELP, or a hobby, all suggestions will be gladly recieved.

New days, new thoughts, new hall paint.

Perspective is a beautiful, healing thing. It truely is.

I have my own special brand of crazy, and I freely admit it, so this post might not make much sense to anyone who thinks I'm normal. (consider yourself warned if my insane logic frys your brain!)

I've painted my hallway. This in turn means I'm sorting my shit out.

Early last week, I was in a bad place. I really was. People who I love, who I loved and who I put so much of myself into helping, admitted that they had made mistakes with me, but that they had learned from them, and wouldnt make them with anyone else. WTF??? Who says things like this to other humans. Who sits there and acknowledges how much of yourself you gave to sort them out, but they had to fuck you up to get to where they need to be. Unfortunately, this is a reaccuring pattern with far too many people in my life. This is why I have made new friends this year, why I've started getting harder, become less forgiving, and started putting myself before my friends. Some people in my life did not deserve what I did to help them thru. If they had understood what I had done for them they would never have betrayed me like they have. Thats not all. I'm not often a nice person, but anyone who knows me knows that I will move heaven and earth to make things right for others. And I still will. I always will cos its the way I'm made. But there are a few differences here and there now.

Anyway, back to the painting thing, cos it is a huge issue. I moved in here 3 and 1/2 years ago. In all that time the only walls that have been painted are my bedroom ones. Which was a good thing and needed at the time. So in all this time, all this chaos that has happened within these four walls, all the tears and rows and anger, all the heartbreak and pain, and the place is still as it was when Phil and I moved in, happy, married and in love. So painting, a big thing. Add to that the fact that I have never painted a room, or a wall, all by myself, on my own, for me. I'm busy building my home. Making it mine. And in the process I am sorting my shit out. As my home is coming together so am I. I really want to be sorted out now. I have things I want to do, and I can't do them because I'm so busy feeling sorry for myself, being down on myself, and believing what others think of me. I'm trying to repair the damage thats been done to me, by myself and by others, cos my son deserves a mother who's in the best possible place, and everyone else derserves to see the pieces of me that I hide. The pieces of me that I don't trust people with cos I dont think they need to deal with my shit...cos if I'm dealing with theirs, they can damn well do the same for me.

Ok, ramble over, I think. And who knows, maybe I'll start posting more now!

POST NUMBER 150!!!

Ok, so its not that big!

But you see, I've been blogging for a couple of years now, and for a year on this platform. I know I dont blog as often as some people would like, but even so, I don't know what I'd do without blogging as a way of releasing at least some of my stress!!!

I had intended to write something topical, or at the very least something intelligent, but then, upon seeing that I was about to write my 150th post, I decided not to, cos really, I'm intellectially challenged at the moment. Its not that I can't do, its that I can't be bothered to!!! I see no reason to start discussing things as if my opinion matters, cos in the grand scheme of things it really doesnt. I might have an earth shattering idea that could affect the fortunes of the masses, but in reality, would i recognise it if i did? And who would listen to me if I recognised it?? So this is a fluff piece, simply to celebrate that I have persisted in keeping a blog even if no-one reads it, or I have nothing to say (which happens far too often for someone who enjoys talking as much as me!).

Now I'm off to read a little, cross-stitch a little and have more coffee....the excitement is unbearable...truely it is!

The BIG-ASS post I promised!!!!

Here comes the post I promised to make up for my lack of posting so far this year. I was horrified when I realized how little I've been posting...I used to post every day...what has happened to me?!?!?!?!?! I will add a disclamer right here at the start...I'm drinking Lambrini Pink Champange. I'm not usually a fan of the cheap wine, but theres something a little addictive about it, and its PINK!!!!!

So, we'll start with Saturday, as thats the first day that something even remotely exciting happened!!!! I WENT OUT!!!! Honest I did, I am not lying, and the proof can be found over at Graeme's blog (I can't be bothered to post pic's, I'm sorry). It was Rachel and Leighton's wedding, and the reception was beautiful. Rachel's dress was glorious and Leighton looked so happy he could have burst! I wish them all the best for the future. It was also fun to go out with the guys from work...we NEVER do anything together except whinge about work!!

Sunday I spent sleeping, cos I was a tad hungover, and the boy got up at 5:30 AM!!!!!!

Monday...I spent SHOPPING. I mean REALLY SHOPPING. I spent almost as much as I make in a month!!!! I bought CD's, books, toys for the boys, clothes for the boy, a new cat-o'-nine-tails (pic's to come of that!), Thortons chocolates and some other random stuff. I now have a healthy respect for the effectiveness of retail therapy...I felt SO very good after shopping for 5 HOURS.

Tuesday I had a driving lesson and drove to Southampton for the first time in 7 years. I didnt do too badly all things considered, and I have the most AWESOME driving instructor in the world...we stopped for a fag break!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday I built a chest. It was all pre-cut wood so I just had to put it together but even so, I was chuffed with it!! And now its sat in my room, under my window, full of my Wicca supplies and reference books. It also acts as an altar, which has made my month. Its so fulfilling to be able to worship at an altar designed specifically for that purpose, even more so as I constructed it myself. The connection I feel to the Deities has easily doubled, which is probably why I'm feeling so much better.

Yesterday I did town with Amy, which was fun, thou I was paying bills!!!!

Today I did NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats about all my news for now. Tonight I have a night of wine, reading and Supernatural planned.

Oh, and I forgot to mention my new sheets. They may only be polyester satin, but beggers can't be choosers, and I have gold and black slippy-slide-y sheets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M BACK ONLINE.....WOOHOO

This year has been the absolute worst for my internet connection and I. First I am disconnected by my phone company, then by my ISP. This time however was far more hassle and worry. I went to plug my MP3 player in to change my play list and the computer kept telling me that I was overloading my USB ports. WTF?? My MP3 player is ancient and has about as much juice as a snail covered in salt. It is in no way powerful enough to take on the lappy. Not in a fair fight at least! As I was panicking that I had broken the lappy and was doomed to have an empty MP3 player...I looked and saw...THE FRAYED ELECTRICAL LEAD ON MY MODEM. D'OH. Okay, so that's not what I actually said when I realized the possible outcomes of fire, electric shocks admistered to my son and so on! So my wonderful mother went out and grabbed me a modem to replace it while I was at work. Which I loved her for. That was until I set it up and realized that I had to phone my ISP and configure the damn thing.........and because I am essentially lazy, this took a couple of days. But I am online now, and have SO much to blog, but its also bed time...so I'll do it tomorrow...possibly with pictures!!!!!!!!

Night all!

Some random for you, cos it's all I got!

Some random things...

Check out my blog roll. I have added a bunch of new (well new to me) and totally awesome blogs. I went to vote for Crystal at the Blogger Choice Awards (in the best humour catergory...go vote, now, the rest of my post can wait!) and have spent most of the day floating around the blog-o-sphere laughing my arse off, on my own, in an empty house. I am a crazy person.

Just a few moments ago, I walked into my lounge. To find my son...WEARING. MY. NEW. KNEE. HIGH. BOOTS. I shit you not. He was stood in front of the telly wearing these black boots with a 3.5 inch heel that came up to the tops of his thighs. It took a minute or two for me to work out what was going on, but once I did I did the only thing a caring and considerate mother could do...TOOK PICTURES ON MY PHONE AND MESSAGED THEM TO MY FRIENDS. I'm also heading to town for a Dongle (I love that word) just so I can transfer the aforementioned pic's onto the puta!!!!!!!!!!

I'm trying to feel really guilty that I let Graeme down for work tonight. But, to be fair, the stir fry ingredients, slice of chocolate cheesecake, bottle of wine and dyeing my hair that I have planned for tonight are preventing this. Lets be honest, a choice between wine and work? It's no choice at all!!!!!

I have a new phone. Same number, cos I'm too lazy to ring people with the new one (and I've only just learned this one!) but a pretty, pretty Nokia 6111 in pink. I have new technology!!!

I also have Animal Crossing for Nitendo DS. This is why I'm never online anymore. I have toys to play with...including this which is on its way! (******PLEASE NOTE: this link takes you to Ann Summers. If you are easily offended or a prude, just don't click it. If you do you can't say you weren't warned. I'm a nympho, I accept it, you should too!******)

I think thats it so far. But then, I haven't opened the wine yet, so there may be more posting later, perhaps with pic's of the new hair.

I am an inconsiderate blogger!

I am and I admit it. Its just that I haven't really had that much to say just lately. I work, I sleep, I eat and I play with the boy. And thats it right now.

So, in an effort to just have SOMETHING in my life, I am pampering myself tonight, then breaking in my new boots, and watching Serentiy. I know, I know, I cant stand the excitement!!!!!!!

I will try to update more I promise. I just need SOMETHING to happen in my life...thou I did make a purchase from Ann Summers last night, so I might not be around for a few weeks!

Graeme's Holiday...Day''s Two and Three

The only problem with working every day is that I'm so tired!! Because I'm finishing at 5:30pm, it means that my friends are popping over for coffee an awful lot...I don't mind, infact I'll go so far as to say I enjoy it, but it does leave me hyped up for the rest of the night!! Never mind!!!

So anyway, in shop based news...

I did the double banking...s**tting myself the whole time!

I did the Easter Card uplift.

Sue from Millbrook popped in and sorted something out to do with declaring the coupons that I just could not sort out.

Once I've done my PI's today (2 of 'em) then they are done for the week.

Once Babs and Martha have done their bits this morning, all the stock is worked ready for tomoro's delivery...even the big silver cages.

The Easter stock uplift is being dealt with today as well, and thats all that I really have left to do.

I'm both shocked and surprised!!!

ok, thats it for now. I promise to have non-work related posts next week!!!

Graeme's Holiday...Day ONE

ok, so its the first offical day of Graeme's holiday.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Actually, it hasnt been that bad. I went in yesterday and did a bunch of paperwork and stuff, so today went pretty well.

I counted the money. I will never again be able to touch that much money. And I had to put it all back *pouts*.

6 of the 8 PI's for this week are done...just Alcopops/Beer and tins to do.

Summer toys are booked in and on display. It took me AND Mel to actually build the stand *blushes*.

Event stands are cleared and ready for 1/2 price Easter Eggs in the morning, and the promo ends are nearly done.

I am tired.

I know that no-one really wants to know about all this, but I have a sneaking suspicion that Graeme may pop here, so it just keeps him informed of whats going on!!!

I've also dealt with a minimum of 2 attacks of the bitchiness between staff. That is the worst bit of it all. The rest, well, I just got on with it, but when its 'he said, she said' crap between people I need to keep sweet so that they dont walk out, thats MUCH MUCH harder. *tips hat to Graeme for not simply shooting the lot of us*

I now have to do my sodding housework...bleugh...maybe I'll leave it...and then do two lots tomoro!!!!!

Cos I'm still lazy!!!

Graeme emailed me this and in my intense laziness I thought that it would do as a blog post, sort of a filler if you will!!!


1. What time did you get up this morning? 7am
2. Do you prefer Gold or Silver? Silver
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Dumb and Dumberer (NOT ONE COMMENT!)
4. What is your favourite TV programme? The Dresden Files (I have all the books!)
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? COFFEE
6. What is your favourite meal? Sausage and Mash at the moment, comfort food!
7. What is your middle name? Susan Margaret (yes, my middle initials ARE s&m!)
8. What food do you dislike? Mushrooms...with a fiery passion!
9. What is your favourite CD at the moment? Not a specific CD, songs thou are Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood and Do It Anyway by Martina Mcbride
10. What kind of car do you drive? None, I am an avid pedestrian
11. Favourite sandwich? Ham and pickle
12. What characteristic do you despise? Arrogance
13. Favourite item of clothing? Jeans all the way!
14. If you could go anywhere in the world on Holiday? Ireland
15. What colour is your bathroom? a vile shade of green!
16. Favourite brand of clothing? None, my ass doesn't fit in brand names, and nor does my wallet!
17. Where would you retire? right here, if I can ever afford too!
18. What was your most memorable birthday? My 25th......the most uneventful one ever!
19. Favourite sport to watch? why would I watch sport?
20. Furthest place you are sending this? I don't know, Poole?
21. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? Emily
22. Person you expect to send it back first? No clue
24. When is your birthday? 8th January
25. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night, and early hours of morning!
26. What is your shoe size? 5
27. Do you have any pets? NONONONONO
28. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with us? I actually have a bottle of spirits in my house!!!!
29. What did you want to be when you were little? Wife and mother of 6
30. How are you today? Tired. Content.
31. What is your favourite candy/chocolate? Lindt Lindor
32. What is your favourite flower? yellow roses
33. What is a date on the calendar you are looking forward to? 27th July (my boys birthday)
34. Are you married? Separated
35. What is your job? Senior Shift Manager...which sounds grand till you add...of a convenience store!
36. Do you enjoy your job? strangely, there are actually times when I do!

Sorry folks, had an attack of the 'lazy'!

BUT I HAVE AN EXCUSE!!!!

CHECK OUT WHAT I JUST BOUGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, thats kinda all my news I'm afraid...Its the first day of the Easter Holidays, Phil and I are STILL getting on...I s**t you not, we are still getting on!!! And thats about it, there is an intense lack of excitement in my life right now.........come on baby, give me some excitement!!!