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Its been a really odd week again this week......

Although all I ever seem to do is work, do housework, and pass my husband like ships in the night, it all seems quite chaotic!

But I have the weekend off, which is inredibly awesome. Me and my boy are going shopping tomoro to get daddy some awesome birthday pressies, and are then shopping for new christmas decs. Every year, we add something new. We still use the stuff that Phil and I bought for our first christmas together, and as this is our 10th one together, we are going to go a little mad this year (at least I am). It may not be part of MY religous beliefs, but I see no reason not to have LOTS of tinsel and presents!!!!

I know how dull all this is, and thats ok with me, cos thats my life. And I'm not ashamed that I have barely anything going on, and nothing going on that anyone really wants to hear about.......baby steps and all that!

My life is incredibly dull...

...and this is why I don't blog anymore!!! I was wandering around work wondering what to blog about and I worked out how my life goes.....

My boys (they are my world, but frankly, who else is interested in Phil and Edwards day-to-day apart from me?) I love them to the ends of the earth and back, but there really isnt anything much to say!
My family....least said and all that!
My job........there may not be enough words, but even so, deadly dull!
Housework.........endless housework!

Thats it. That is my life. I am dull!!!! But I'm cool with that, dull and ordinary are all good!

Change

I haven't blogged for ages, I know this, but I'm hoping to change all that.

It occured to me that I always try to change but I never really manage to. Every week, I'm going to get fitter, lose weight, be healthier, and so it goes on. In a rare introspective moment I realised that although I have grown up, I'm still experiencing the same issues and insecurites that I was 10 years ago. I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do about it, but as a person who doesnt deal with things but just buries them, I'm thinking that actually getting some of the words out might be helpful. I've spent a lot of time and money on trying to change without really putting my heart into it, so I'm going to try a different tack and not spend the money but to actually really WANT to do it. I know myself welll enough to know what my issues are, and where they stem from, but because the life I am in right now is so comfortable, I take the lazy route!

I knnow few people are interested in this, and that is all good with me, cos that gives me license to be honest, and to say things that I wouldnt say to actual people.

We'll know if its working if I manage to post at least one update this week!!!!

I am so rubbish!

I really am. I never update this anymore...I really, really should. Every day I think of something that I want to blog about...and really random things like toilet roll (it made sense at the time) to current events. Its just that when I get home, and have dealt with the boy, and am all sorted out ready to sit for a bit, I'm so tired I can't remember what I wanted to talk about!

So many things have been happening in my life, its all been a bit mad. Despite that, something tells me that soon I might need to be back in the habit of putting all my crazy on here...that way I've done a spot of venting and all...so I might actually start posting regularly...I'm not promising this time thou...cos that was a lie when I said it before!!

Wednesday Weigh-In

Tonight was weigh-in night for my Slimming World group. For some reason, every week, I spend my Wednesday full of fear. I sit and think about everything I've eaten all week, what I should have walked away from (chocolate spread this week, treat sized Crunchies last week) and then I panic about having put weight on. I worry about what I've done that I shouldn't have, and what I haven't done that I really should have (exercise falls into this category most weeks).

The thing of it is, I only started this whole thing on the 30th July. That means that I have only been doing it for 13 weeks. I have lost 2 stone and 1.5 lbs in that time. That's 29.5 lbs. That's 14.5 bags of sugar. That's a hell of a lot of weight to lose. So, realistically, if I did put on a pound or even two, how much difference would it really make. As long as I continue along this path, as long as I stick to the positive changes I have made in my life, its all gonna be good. This doesn't stop the fear though, or the paranoia.

All this stress is ok though. At the end of the day, I've already dropped 2 dress sizes, so my self confidence is constantly rising. I'm fitter (a little bit anyway). I'm healther. I'm a better example for my son. Once I lose my weight, I am learning to swim. Its actually quite awesome. The only thing ow will be sticking to it, and not giving in to my small stash of 'emergency Mars Bars'.

Insert something clever or funny here...I'm too tired to think of anything!

I have had a beautiful day today. Because of the hours I work I only get 2 full days a fortnight to spend with my boy these days. Today was one of them. We started the day with a swimming lesson, which he loves, and I hate. I have a fear of swimming pools, I can't swim, and I hate the humid, horrid atmosphere in the pool area. So, as any good mother would, I went and watched my boy diving into the deep end of our local pool while sweating like a pig and freaking out incase he drowns. This is my least favourite part of my weekend with him! Then, all we did was come home and mong out with a DVD, and his crazy bones. It was the coolest Saturday I have had for a long while.

Tomorrow, we have a similar plan, unless its as nice as it was today...if the sun is shining then we are going out!!

That really is all my news...thou I did empty my loft and my shed...I'm excited by that, but I could see how no-one else would be!

LOVING the wireless

seriously...why have I never had wireless before???? I'm loving being sat on my bed and online too. Admittedly I have to take the puta back downstairs in a minute to do more cleaning...but still...very cool to have wireless. My next project will be going online on Animal Crossing...cos I love that game and the kids accidently deleted my years worth of playing...I need to steal some fish and bugs!!

Other than that I am not quite sure why I'm blogging...I've had such a dull day...I got up, went to work, came home, and started the housework. That's it. I still need to get a life....can you buy them these days??? Oh well, if something exciting does happen I'll just have to blog again!