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head rush going on

D'oh, I have a bit of a head rush going on from the first coffee and cigarette of the day!!!!

Yeaterday I had to take my boy to Southampton to get his eyes checked.....they're doing ok, don't need another check up for 3 months this time! (YAY). Then I had to take him to the Doctors, cos he's got an ear infection......luckily he isnt contagious so he's back to school today, but he does need er drops for a week.

Then, having accidently been awale for 36 hours, I passed out on the sofa at about 7, woke up at midnight, staggered upstairs and slept some more!!!!!!!

Today I am off to the dentists, I've managed to get one course of treatment on the NHS, so I'm going in to see what needs doing today, and hoping that my tax rebate com,es thru sometime soon, cos my WFTC has gone down by £3o a week.......the government is trying to see me starve I think!!!

Oh, and comment moderation is being turned on.......damn spammers!

D'OH, its 4:20am......why am I awake???

I think there must be something going on with the weather or the seasons or something.........we're nowhere near a Solsitce or anything I dont think, but for some reason that I cant think of I am completely awake, not even a tiny bit sleepy. I really hope that this doesnt mean that my body will try to survive on 3 hours sleep a night again.......I am really praying that this is a one off!!!

There's nothing on TV right now, and no books that I want to read, so I think I might go outside and watch the Sun rise, perhaps that might calm the craziness of me, if not, then coffee it is!!!!!!

ARGHHHHH..........(again!)

Am not that long home from work, just long enough to get some Calpol into the extremely hot boy, and for my feet to stop hurting!!!!!!!

Work was a NIGHTMARE. I got in at 7, expecting the delivery to be done (to be fair it arrived at 8:30).....and there was still one cage.........so I mistakenly thought that they must have had about 20 cages in or something..........not 8. Needless to say, this made my night quite chaotic. Trish took nearly £1000 on her till so I know we were busy, and I managed to clean the milk shelves, date check and clean cereal, bread and cakes, work the ice cream freezer, and the cage of stock......most of the store was faced up, and i mopped out the back as well as the shop floor, then customers walked all over the floor, so I actually gave up! I cant believe that we got so much done, but in the same breath, this is exactly what I need to stop doing. Every time I go in there and do that much, I show that I can achieve a lot on my shift, which means people leave more for me to do the next time. I'm sure that it wouldnt have been a huge problem if i hadn't done as much, but I felt guilty about not doing more. I take pride in my work and really do try to at least do what is expected of me, but I always seem to be doing more......damnit..........I MUST stop doing this!!!!!!!!!!!

'Laxing' girlie

you know how sometimes you just need to do something to relax? Some people would have a drink, others a joint, some would watch TV, some would listen to music..........not me however....

While up the shop today, I decided to splurge and buy some sausages, bacon and eggs. Once the boy was in bed, I was wound up so I did the only thing that I knew that would calm me down from the top of my head to the soles of my feet...........I BAKED........bread at that......then had hot crusty bread, with real butter, sausage, bacon, and egg.............. HEAVEN ON A PLATE.

Now I'm relaxed (to a degree, theres still enough going on deep in my head to make me just a little touchy...........*please note*.........this is kinda an understatement).......but there is something going on in my head which I am glad about. I'm finding my way back to me. This sounds like a good thing for just about anyone in my life.......actually, its not, cos me is less tolerant, more assertive, and less likely to 'shut up and put up'. Mum's already pissed at me for being alittle more like myself! The thing of it is, while I was with Phil I took a LOT of shit that I shouldn't have. For someone with a strong sense of self, I just rolled over and took it. I always PROMISED myself that I never would from anyone else.........not any of it...........I promised that if it looked like the past was repeating itself, even if it wasn't, then I would stand up for myself..................obviously, I actually ignored this pep talk to myself, as there have been many instances of taking things that I shouldn't, from all sorts of people in my life, friends, family, even my son's been getting away with murder!

So, please, if anyone thinks I'm putting up with things that I shouldn't........kick me up the ass........PLEASE!!!!!!!!!

D'oh, I cant think of a title!

The brain is not working as well as it should today................I'm putting it down to tiredness, I haven't been sleeping that well this week.

Yesterday was FABULOUS.....and I didn't do that much..........I just spent the day with my boy.....we didnt go out, or do anything that spectualar but we did get to spend time together, and he was so good for me, and it was just fantastic, one of my best days ever. Its been a while since we had such special time together, and I have really, really missed........however, I will say now, that about 2 weeks into the summer holidays I may be singing a completely different tune!!!!!

On the note of bloggage, it may be noticable to some that I'm only talking about stuff at the very surface of my mind.....there is a reason for this........usually, this would be a place for ranting and bitching, and I'd do it happily..........but in this case, with the events of earlier this week, this is an inappropiate medium for the thoughts in my head at the moment........they are a little too personal, and when repeating my own past mistakes, I'd rather keep them private......so only I know who much of an idiot I can be!

wired, wired, wired!!!!!

ARGHHH, I'm STILL buzzing from work. After all the chaos of the day, work was nice and relaxing (I know just how insane that sounds!). First off, Angie was allittle off with me, but we soon settled into a nice work routine. It was pretty busy, and my cleaning was HOUSEHOLD......which seemed to take forever, but I managed to get it done........I even managed to get the floor swept and mopped and most of the facing up done....it was a little patchy but then there were alot of things that Angie needed help with on the till, and then there was the new 'Dream Number' game on the lottery, which means you have to do something different whenever you put a ticket in, or do a lucy dip for the Lotto, which took us a while to work out as no-one had mentioned it! At the end of the night Angie even said that she had really enjoyed working with me, as I was really relaxed about everything, and left her with no pressure and just got on and did things.....which I considered a real compliment......I take pride in my work, and its nice to hear that people think I'm doing a good job (I just love ethe attention really!). And Sue and Melisa even brought me a piece of fish for dinner.....bless them so much. The only problem with all of this is that I am really wide awake, and its school and then CAB tomoro morning so I should really sleep!!!!!!!!!

The chaos, the UTTER chaos!!!!

OMG............sometimes I wonder what my life must look like to other people. Most days just potter along....doing mums, then whatever I need to do, lookng after the boy and working......it all seems pretty dull. Then you have a day like to today.

When I got to mums I realised that if I dont hoover then NO-ONE does....grrrrrr....I dont even LIVE there......but never mind.

Then I come home, and feeling hungry I went to cook myself a bowl of rice.....only to discover that.... MY GAS HAD BEEN CUT OFF. Now, me and the gas company have a history of problems. I try really hard not to actually name companies on here, even when I have a ligitamate complaint. But after all this today, I no longer care. Scottish Power supply my gas and electricity. I have been with them for 2 years, and in that time I have recieved a couple of electric bills (I have a key meter......esssentially 'pay-as-you-go electric) which are IMPOSSIBLE to run up as if I dont put money on my key then I dont have electric.....thats it and all about it, there's no room for manovure on this!!!!! But on the subject of the gas, they started by just sending me bills, with NO giro slips.........making it IMPOSSIBLE to pay them. So, I phone them and tell them about this, several times over 18 months. They seemed under the impression that I had the same sort of meter for my gas as for my leccy...............but as I told them, why would they let me run up a £200 bill on a pay as you go meter?????????? After finally recieving my first giro slip, I recieved another, for £850. They are firm in the belief that I was able to use 2000 units of gas in 5 WEEKS............baring in mind that my average consummtion is £150 a quarter then that would actually take me about 14 quaters to run up a bill like that, about 42 months, about 3 and a half YEARS.......NOT 5 WEEKS. So, I am disputing this, longly and loudly, infact I even got the national watchdog for energy providers involved....................cos the last straw was finding that they had cut my gas off, despite KNOWING that I am a single mum with a 4 yr old! ARGGGHHHHHHHHH. I spent an hour on the phone today sorting it all out..............so stressed after it all!!!!!!!!!! So, I have decided that I am gonna sit, and relax before work, and try to calm down after all of this.....then go into the monkey house I call work and see what chaos is happening there!!!!!!!

Marathon blogage

OK.......so, it's been a while since I blogged, but between the chaos at work and this stupid cold, which I can't shift, I haven't had much time to sit infront of the computer and actually type, while I haven't got a migraine, or temperature, or just general unwellness. Also, I have a new addiction........Veronica Mars ........think Buffy, but without the demons, and more private investiagation stuff. Tis very very good.

Work has been chaotic, what with 22 cage deliveries, staff calling in sick and new ASM's being trained.....thou Bee is getting on very very well, and both Saturday and Sunday were a giggle with both her and Graeme about.

A note on the song........its for a certain someone........I'm working tonight, which is possibly a good thing, as I'm rather cross and need to vent my anger somewhere!!!!!!!

its 2am and FAR too hot to sleep

damnit, I havent been awake at this time of night for a long long time!!!!!! I just cannot get to sleep in this heat, which means my mind has been busy being random so I thought I'd post some of my thoughts here...........mainly cos I'm bored!

I've just finished one of my many books. It's about the 7th or 8th time that I've read it, and I still don't tire of seeing words. Words, the written word in particular, are definately my passion (not disregarding my son of course) and have been since I learnt to read. I stunned the teachers at my school when I started, as on my first day there I completed the set reading for my year group, and have had a reading age of 16 (based on what the school tells you!) since i was 7. Books, papers, even leaflets if I am really bored, they all captivate and thrill me. A well written book will seduce me time and time again, and I'll still stay up far too late to just finish a book, one that I've already read time and time again. The only downside to this is that new books last me about a day! I do really wish that I could write as well as I read. One day I really hope to write something that could thrill others as other people have thrilled me. Written words are something that will alway get a reaction out of me, whether it be arousal, fear, sadness, joy......you get to go for a ride along with someone, experience their thoughts and feelings in everyway, and you dont always get to do that with your partner, yet you can depend on a book to give you that. When all else is going pear-shaped, I can always count on a book being there to soothe my senses and take me somewhere far from the struggles of life.

I guess I may even be able to sleep now, and if not, theres always coffee I guess!
Night all

opps, didn't mean to disappear

D'OH, I can't believe I dropped out of touch again........I dont mean to keep doing this, but then I get caught up in the chaos of having a four year old and the finances of a single mother!!!!!!!

I have been very philosphical lately, and meditating a lot, 'spring cleaning' my brain...........not that things in there are getting any clearer!!!!!! But its still nice to have the space and peace in my head for an hour or two at least.

Other than that I dont really have that much to blog......I havent been at work, so not much exciting has been going on. I spent Friday and Saturday on the phone to the bank and working families tax credit. The bank took a double payment out for my credit card, leaving my bank short for tomorrow's direct debit. So, I spend hours ringing them, and being put thru to all sorts of people, and they offer to refund the money........in 7 to 10 days..............what a help that would be!!!!!!!!!! Then WFTC...........they've billed me and Phil for an overpayment of £1530.57. There are a few problems with this thou.............problem one......at the time of this supposed overpayment, the working tax element (the bit that used to go in your pay packet) was going thru Phil's wages.......except we were'nt actually being paid it......AT ALL.......infact, the entire entilement was £3111, and I received NONE of it.........however, they only have my word for that right now, so I have to appeal the descion, and possibly get my son's father prosecuted in the process.........oh YAY! So, I spend 30 minutes on the phone to some guy from their reclaims department who says to me 'well, I can see from this that you only have £20 a month for housekeeping expenses (food, cleaning stuff, clothes etc) so we would like you to pay £10 a month.' D'OH. And the buggers gonna take 6 years to repay.......my £3000 loan is taking less than that, and if Phil doesn't pay his half then I am liable for it, and could face court over it, or I might just pay for it myself, just to avoid it!

On a more positive note, I took my son into town on Saturday morning, and he was A JOY........he was just stunningly behaved and generally fantastic.................and he had a moment that would have made Graeme and Adrian proud..........................we walked into Superdrug and he tried to get a basket (we were only going in for a packet of tissuses!) and he shouted....'but mum, I need to buy lots of girlie stuff!' He had every person in the first alsie in stitches!

Morning All

First a comment on the song........watched the film the other night and just had to post this song, as it made me smile, and thought that those of us with the 'Summertime Blues' could do with a smile!

Then, a small worship of Graeme................when I got into work last night, everything had been done! For what I think may have been the first shift that I have worked in a long time, I just had to do my own jobs.....which meant that I had time to sweep and mop out the back, and had done everything by 8!!!!!!!!! All I had to do between 8-10 was face up, so the store looked fabulous this morning, and Paul even swept and mopped the shop floor properly. The only downside of my shift was the fact that when I took my till off, I managed to drop it!!!!!!!!!

Other than that, my mother has my blood boiling, for far to many reasons to list here, and more than I want to go into...........thou I will mention that she had the audacity to ask if I do drugs. Does this woman KNOW me?????????

And on that happy note, I'm off to try and sort out the house, get ready for work, and generally try to bring order to chaos!!!!

I'm still alive I promise!!!

Damn, my life has been chaotic! I didnt even manage to sit infront of the computer yesterday!

Thursday, at work, was all ok, I worked the soft drinks, which involved working a cage of backstock, every case of backstock, and two shelves of loose drinks. It took me 2 hours, and I actually got out, 39 cases of stock........39...........dear god, I was knackered!!!! However, Phil and the boy had a fantastic time while I was busting my balls, and the boy got to have daddy put him to bed, which has always been a novelty!

Friday was chaos, I ran round like a demented chicken, panicking about this visit from Housing Benefit. Turns out I didnt need to panic quite so much, and they are only lowering my benefit a little for now, based on the fact that I have been paying tax on my wages that I shouldn't have been paying.

And today........today me and Ness managed to work three backstock cages from the delivery (I was crappy at work last night), the three normal backstock cages, all the alcohol (bar the wines........saving them for tomoro!), every soft drink in the store andevery sweet/chocolate in the store. As well as it being crazy on the tills..........really really crazy!

I also must comment on the complete randomness of my thoughts lately. Sue's niece finally had her baby, and has called her 'Keyanna Olivia Sara' which made me think about names. For example, I chose Edward for my boy, not just cos its a family name, but because he has a choice of name shortenings, as well as it being a name that he can have all his life without completely hating it! My actual name is Theresa, and I hate it.......when someone calls me by it, I immediately wonder what I've done wrong, and often I dont even register it as my name!!!! But then, if someone calls me Kira, Miss Kira, Pepper or Tizzie, I recognise that they are addressing me straight away. Then my thoughts went somewhere completely different......after my bath I was stood in the lounge, in my underwear and my high heels and dancing to Meatloaf and havign a fag...........damn, I'm a fetishist's dream!!!!!!!!!!

Too much time alone is not always a GOOD thing!!!!

Firstly my apologies to anyone who's been trying to get hold of me on MSN, I just haven't had time to get online, have been so busy doing the housework and getting sorted for the Housing Benefit home visit thing that I feel like I haven't stopped (thou I know I have)

I've spent most of the day by myself, I went and did mums, made the few phone calls that had to happen, and then other than picking up the boy, and seeing Aunty, have been alone.

This isn't as bad as it seems. Its occured to me today, that being alone is both good and bad....and for the same reason..........you have alot of time alone with your own thoughts. So, while I was racing round trying to make it look like humans and not monkeys live here, I was thinking, almost the whole time, about the future, or at least the parts of it pertaining to me and the boy. Everything from cementing his relationship with his father, to how much I want to be able to give him as he grows. To that end, I have managed to sort out his dad picking him up from school tomoro and having him while I'm at work, which he is so excited about that it actually makes me hurt. I know that Phil and I spliting up was exactly the right thing to do, and I dont entertain thoughts of being with him again, but the look of joy on my boy's face when I told him that daddy would pick him up was stunning, it just hurts cos its taken nearly 5 years of me constantly reinforcing things to him to make that look appear, and I hope that neither of them ever realise just how much I had to work to make sure that they had and have a relationship, but I am so glad that I did. Just lately access has gotten easier on them both, and they no longer need constant supervision, another area in my boys life where I need to take a step back.

Then my thoughts drifted off to the whole 'where am I gonna be in 10 years' thing. And heres the thing, the only thing that I really want out of my life for the foreseeable is my boys smile and laughter and tears and pain, all of it, thats all I want, to experience the wonder that is my son. I want to give him whatever I can, as much as I can, to be a good provider, but none of my goals or hopes are personally related to me and my life, but more him and where his life could go.

After all this reflection, I sat in my almost spotless sitting room, thinking about decorating, and friends, and watching 'Kinky Boots' again. Seems like an odd combination even to me!

I also worked out the reason for my blues. And really its a no-brainer, at least if you are sensible and look at a calaender. In 9 days, I would have known Phil for 6 years. In 36 days it will be 6 years since our first kiss, and 5 years since our son was born, 35 days, our third wedding anniversary, 44 days, our sixth anniversary and less than 3 months, six years since I moved in with him. And in less than 5 months it will be a year since we split. So, thou I'm not looking to get back with him or anything (thats really not what this is all about) I think I might be grieving, for the loss of the relationship that I thought would last forever. So, pardon my randomness, mood swings and fragility for just a little longer.

Sorry this is so long, it was only supposed to be a short post!!!!

Sorry bout the mood swings!

Well, I have to admit, maybe miracles do happen. After my generally 'bleugh' day yesterday, where I was just so disinterested in everything and generally p**set off, things did brighten up. I'm not quite sure how they did, but they did!!!!!

I got to spend time with my boy, not much, but some. We went back to mum and dads once he was home, and there he got given his first bike. I must say that I always wanted to be the one to get him his first bike, but, he was generously given one by one of his little friends and I did get to watch him ride around like a daredevil. My heart nearly jumped out when I told him to stop so he did........By leaping off of the still moving bike!!!!!!!!

Then I accidentally managed to fall asleep on the sofa, didn't wake up till 10:30, and then went straight up to bed......This could account for the brightness of my mood today.........About 12 hours sleep!!!!!

And today, well today, I did mums, then went to work. I wasn't sure what to expect, but it looked like nothing had been done after Graeme left on the promo end of things, actually, according to Sue, the supervisor was all cashed up and everything when Sue came into take over. This being said, when I left today, the promo ends were done, the dump bins were emptied, the wine was all worked (courtesy of Ness) and I managed to re-planagram the household (I thought it was just a simple one, not a change EVERYTHING one!) complete with SELS and everything, which I was actually really pleased with, cos it looked lovely once I had finished it. So, in theory, we are all ready for the delivery tomorrow, and I am really, really hoping its a small one, cos I am not looking forward to have to do delivery on top of normal evening jobs.

Oh, and I have to mention the strangest thing.................I was asked if I had a thing for Graeme!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Was just about the oddest thing I have ever been asked, cos I'm sure that people have realised that, well, he's gay! Not only that, but when did thinking that someone is fabulous turn into fancying them?????????? I have to say that I was actually speechless, I'm sorry Graeme, but you're just too, well, gay! But I do think you are fantastic, I am just puzzled how anyone could think it was anything else? Applying the same theory as the person who suggested it was, that would mean I also have a thing for......Kimmy, Amanda, Ness, Sue, Charlene, Ryan, Philip, Cat, Jo, Richard........Just about everyone I know actually........And even I'm not that indiscriminate!

defeated and broken today

am having a really depressy day today. Which bugs me actually as its my first Sunday off in forever, and at this point I'd rather be at work I think.

I was sick as a dog yesterday, shaky, throwing up, dizzy, and thou I did manage to get Edward sorted out to a degree, I wasn't at my best so my parents took over for me. I know that I screwed up. That it was my fault. I did try my best, but as I am well aware, thats not often good enough. As I had to put mum and dad out yesterday, I will be going over there later to spend a couple of hours repaying the time that I took from them yesterday. I had hoped to spend the day blitzing my housework as I have a Housing Benefit inspection on Friday, and what with work and Edward, and doing mums in the mornings, I just dont know when else I'm going to get the time to get it done. So today I'm very blue. And thought I'd ramble about it here, as I dont exactly have a wealth of friends I could phone and bitch to, and anyway, I'm not allowed to do that anymore. I have been told that the picture I paint of my mother to others (who exactly????) is less than flattering (again, who am I talking to exactly?????) so I'm not to do it...........not much of a change then, instead of just not having anyone I can just call, I'm not actually allowed to call them if I did.........YAY ME (!).

My apologies for the general 'bleugh-ness' of todays post........who knows, in the next few hours I may grow a backbone, or someone might realise that I'm actually 24, have moved out, and am actually doing quite well with everything.........but I aint holding my breath for the latter!

Randomness abound!

HEY ALL......seems I actually have actual people who visit this blog, people who arent my friends, but come here anyway........YAY.

Am feeling really really random today.........in a chaotic way, so thought I'd have a ramble on here while I potter about in my pretty pink (yes I DO own that colour) sundress (ok, I'll admit, I stole it off Kimmy......but I do look good!)

On the note of Kimmy, I was only expecting to see Amanda and Elise today, so imagine how thrilled I was when Kimmy, Skye and Katy came too!!!!!! For 45 hectic minutes I had 3 under 3's in my front room!!!!! Edward was apparently thrilled too.......I'm not too sure, as he was asleep when I got in (worships Manda for the peace and quiet!)

Work was actually fun...........thou, this may be because, for some reason, Graeme has the ability t0 make me giggle......like a girl..........which is probably a good thing, and it does make work fun. Also managed to get all bar 2 trolleys (one of soft drinks that would all go out and one of sweets) done, and only had to leave two extra cages of backstock.........which I consider a good thing as we go a lot of promo stuff in.

I also wanted to thank Steph from the MSN group I'm a member of for the pic at the top of this post........isnt it pretty?!!!!

And I think thats it, its been a chaotic day, but I can't quite pin down the reasons why!

Short on patience and loooooooooong on temper!!!

Again this post starts with an.........ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Once, I thought that working in a shop was easy.....Go in, do my job, go home again...............This weekend has changed my view of things. After the hassle of yesterday, First thing on the agenda this morning was finding out how James was, and whether he was coming in..............Turns out that while he was off work with his 'dodgy curry last night' excuse, he fell asleep in the sun (cos we all know that's where sick people go, to lie in the sun and sweat) and has sunburn, heatstroke, and his legs have swollen up.......Can anyone say HANGOVER?????

Then 'stupid boy' - one of the worst General Assistants I have ever had the displeasure to work with - phones up (well his mum does) she thinks that he ate something bad and has food poisoning...........Can I get a repeat on that HANGOVER.

There was also the small matter of receiving 4 cages of milk yesterday and another 3 today.......There is milk EVERYWHERE, as we only have a fridge out the back, certainly nowhere big enough for the 3 left over cages that there was this morning!

Then I spend my time trying to get hold of the evening supervisor who went AWOL last night, she wouldn't answer her phone, despite it ringing for 2 minutes each time I tried her.......Not only that, the gossip is that yesterday was her fellas birthday, which is why she didn't come in............Doesn't explain why she didn't tell anyone, especially as she was definitely aware that she was working!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRR

So, Ness is working tonight, poor girl, I sent her home early in the end, at about 12, so that she can get her kids sorted out before she has to come back to work to do a 6-11, as there is no-one else to do it, thou it was a close call getting her to do it, as her hubby kicked, and then her mum.......You'd think she was trying to run off to the circus instead of cover a shift!!!!

On the plus side, we beat budget by £3007 this week.....Would have been more if we hadn't had to close at 9 last night........But how cool is that?! I don't admit it often, but I actually do love my job..........And love it when I can see how well we are doing as a store and so on, I just wish that some of the other staff would take pride in their store and their work.

And that's it, I haven't been home long enough for anything exciting to happen, and all I intend to do tonight is sleep after my sleeplessness night last night

Edited at 20:01 to add: Have to add this quickly........just phoned Ness at the shop to see how it was all going........and as I was on the phone to her who should stroll into to shop.........'stupid boy'.......got over that food poisoning real quick didnt he if he was able to come in a buy fags!!!!!!!GRRRRRRRRRRRR

DAMN PEOPLE

I've actually had quite a busy evening........

First I get a phone call from Ness........to see if I could go BACK to work..........we'll ignore the fact that I had only been home 2 hours at this point. The problem is that the evening supervisor didnt show........at all.........apart from when she popped over from the pub to buy fags this morning!!!! Poor Ness couldnt do it as her other half was out......I couldnt cos I couldnt get a sitter.........so I offered to come in early, but cant do that as I cant get hold of Philip to sort it out and see if he can pick the boy up at normal time.

Then I phoned Ness for a gossip......when she used to live 2 doors down, we'd speak at least every day, and spend hours on the phone........but we kinda dropped out of touch until I started working with her again........which is nice........cos I kinda think of her as a sister anyway, and have shared so much with her over the years, that its nice to get that back......we're even going to go out for a drink next week!

On the note of old friends, and shared secrets and laughter, I saw one of my closest friends this week. Ryan and I have always had the sort of friendship that doesnt matter how long you dont see each other for, you just seem to pick back up from where you left. And his friendship, like Nessie's, has always been something that I consider precious. So, when he popped into work to see me, and have a chat, and tell me how close he had moved to where I live I have to admit to being absolutely tickled pink that we are back in touch again.......................theres something about true friends that makes a body warm from the inside out.

I wanna take my ball and go home now please!!!!!!!!!!!

DAMN I HURT!!!!!!!!!

I get to work this morning, to find that there is 11 cages, 8 of them still wrapped from yesterdays delivery to work, as well as all the normal Saturday jobs, it being World Cup game day and too too hot!!!!!

I lifted £3000 today, in six hours, which I think is fantastic considering that really we are only a small store.......but then I think about all that work and start to sweat!!!! Ness and I managed to get all bar 2 cages worked, 1 was backstock crisps and the other was sweets, so no great shakes for Sue and Melissa to do. And on top of all the work we had to do, James called in sick......so we lost a pair of hands too!

It's just really annoying that we go in there and really work hard.........I think 9 cages in 6 hours while also being on the till, doing lifts, dealing with customers and everything else is really good.............but then last night, all that was done was the stock Ness had spotted, nothing else was touched, no cages opened and worked or anything.................GRRRRRRRRRRR.....I'm sure that they realise I am in and think that I am a mug...........cos the people in the evenings the night before I work never really do much, yet by the time I leave, I've done my stuff and theirs! I should really stop doing this..........but I'm thinking that my surprise weekend off (thank you Graeme, I may have to worship you!) will make them realise that they need to do their work on a Friday night!!!!!!!!!!!

And thats it, as I hurt, my muscles ache, my knees been playing up all day and I need a bath (thou I dont know if I can get out after I get in) and to sleep like the dead before work tomoro!