Monday, November 20, 2006

Monday Madness

1. In order to protect my computer from viruses, I use _______.

In order to protect my computer from viruses, I use AntiVir adn Zone Alarm.

2. I also use _______ for protection from spyware.

I also use *blushes* nothing for protection from spyware. (Adds to the to-do list)

3. I don't spend nearly enough time _______.

I don't spend nearly enough time on myself.

4. The first person I usually talk to in the morning is _______.

The first person I usually talk to in the morning is either my son, or a special friend.

5. It takes me about _______ to get ready in the morning.

It takes me about 10 minutes to get ready in the morning.

6. I keep all my appointments in/on _______.

I keep all my appointments in my head if they are soon, on my phone if they are more than 3 months away (gotta love my memory sometimes!)

7. It takes me about _______ to fall asleep at night.

It takes me about anywhere from 5 minutes to 5 hours to fall asleep at night.

Friday, November 17, 2006

In Loving Memory...

Dearest Gun-Gun,

I heard of your passing just yesterday. I was at work, and it was as if the world had stopped for a moment or two.

I never have been good at articulating my deepest feelings, and it saddens me that you might not know just how much I love you, and always have. How I was always so proud to be your Granddaughter.

I put off getting in touch with you, because I was ashamed of how I was struggling, and I didnt want you to see it. I wanted so badly to be the person you wanted me to be, and I didnt want to show you that I'm not there yet. I'm so sorry. I wish I could do these last few years over.

I miss you already. As soon as I heard the news, the first thing that came into my mind was the smell of being safe in your arms, pipe tobacco and aftershave. You've always been larger than life to me. Then I remembered all the times I visited as a child, to find speacial treats in the cupboard, bought just for me and Johnathon. Speacial times when I felt so spoiled, so cared for.

I remember how you refused to have your Granddaughter accept charity. How you made sure that I was able to afford the things that stopped me being the target of bullys. How you showed me that I could be better than I was expected to be. How you never judged me, even when you felt I was making the wrong choices. How you let me make my own mistakes and didnt ever hate me for them.

I wish I had listened more, spent more time with you, told you more about me. I wish I could show you who I am right now, how I've changed in the last 6 months. I wish that I had posted the letter that I wrote. I wish that I had made more of an effort. I hope you never doubted my love for you.

I hope you find peace, wherever you are now.

All my love
Your Tizzie

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Thursday Thirteen #8

Thirteen Things I say on a daily basis

1…"Look where your going or you'll fall over" - to my son, the dreamer, who will walk into lamp posts, walls, puddles, hedges, you name it!

2..."ARGGGHHHHHHHH" - normally at work!!!!

3..."Don't make me beat/bite you!" - to anyone who happens to annoy me

4..."Come on then, what else have you got?!" - directed heaven-wards, normally after my day has progressed to utter chaos.

5..."WHERE ARE MY GLASSES?" - I'm blind as a bat without them, and I lose them at least once a day!

6..."I'll see you later, in your dreams" - to my son, after a night time kiss and cuddle.

7..."Why is there a pencil/piece of string/small creature/handful of mud in your pocket?" - again to my son...I don't talk to adults much

8..."ok, that was REALLY gay!" - to Adrian, cos he really does get gay-er as the day gets later!

9..."YOU DID WHAT?" - to the ex-husband

10..."No baby, Daddy doesnt love his new family more than you" - this is the saddest one, especially as 'daddy' has only known the woman for 8 weeks, and is living with her and playing daddy to her poor boy.

11..."yes mum" - need I say more?!

12..."I love you and I am so proud of you" - to my boy, of course!

13..."I'm gonna f***ing kill him" - with passion and deep hatred, to anyone who I happen to talk to about the ex-husband!!!

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Monday, November 13, 2006

Monday Madness

1. From ch'i:If you could only read one blog every day- which one blog would be on your daily list?

I really couldnt choose just one...Maybe two or three, but not just one!

2. From kat:What do you do to de-stress from a hectic day?

Have a hot bath, with a good book, pop my jammies on and snuggle up and watch telly/read/jigsaw.

3. From paxil princess:What is your favorite piece of clothing to wear in the winter?

JEANS......actually, they're my favourite at all times of year!

4. From sherle:Do you prefer discussing problems with a sibling, a parent, a significant other, a psychologist, or a total stranger?

With a significant other if I have one, but failing that, myself.

5. From trista:How long have you been blogging?

About 18 months give or take

6. From lisa e:Which side of the bed?

The WHOLE bed thank you very much (and its a King-Size!)

7. From elton:How often do you pig out when you eat?

Far too often, I have a complex about clearing my plate, stemming from going hungry too often. Unfortunately, this does mean that if I'm not watched I will eat until I hurt!

8. From karen:Do you watch the space shuttle launches?

Nope, never, holds no interest for me.

9. From dawn:What's your favorite leisure-time activity?


10. From sherle:When is the last time you said, 'I love you' and to whom? What about hugs? Who is the last person you hugged?

This morning, to my son, who replied with 'I love you till I burst' for hugs, same goes, my son, this morning.

Friday, November 10, 2006

An Open letter to customers of ___ ____ in __________.

(I wont actually mention the store name or location......I do like having a job!)

After dealing with your charming selves for nearly a year, I feel it is time to mention a couple of things.

First off, just because I work behind a till does not make me an idiot. I work in a shop, this is true, but it is my CHOICE, not because I am too stupid to work anywhere else. I am intelligent and capable, and 9 times out of 10, I generally have a higher IQ then you. The action of working behind a till makes me in no way inferior to you, and there is no reason to doubt that I am able to speak coherently or keep up with current events.

There is no reason to look at me in shock when I say something like 'Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening', it's just plain good manners, its not special treatment, its not because I am attracted to you, it is simply because I have manners and use them. It worries me that you find this so surprising. Looking at me like I've grown an extra head, or, my current favorite, looking up and saying 'WHAT?' is not necessary. Just because I am able to pay attention to you as I serve you, whilst you are oblivious to my existence is no excuse for being rude.

I do not appreciate trying to serve you your goods while you are chatting away on your mobile phone. Again, we are back to basic manners. How am I supposed to be able to ask you for the money you owe for your goods while you are busy making up with your girlfriend?

Also, if I ask you if you require anything else, I am generally referring to the tobacco products that are behind the till. I do not expect you to say......'yes, butter.' and then head down to the other end of the shop while other customers are waiting for you to come back just for butter. This is also bad manners! And by asking if you want to purchase anything else, I am, again, not signaling that I am attracted to you, but asking politely if you need anything else. Therefore, when you ignore me, and then 2 minutes later come back and say 'oh....I need (insert product here)', it makes me just a little cross. I understand that you don't really see me, that I am just white noise to you, but manners people, MANNERS.

If you have a problem with a member of staff, there is no reason to come and find me and tell me about it incessantly. For a start, you likely treated him with as much disrespect and indifference as you do me, and secondly, if you have a complaint, talk to management. Why you seem to expect me to send him home and run the shop on my own is beyond me. There is nothing I can do, expect waste 10 minutes of my shift listen to you repeat yourself.

When you are drunk, it is in no way amusing to see you come in, walk to a section of the store that I have actually faced up and start rearranging stock. You may think your funny, but your not, and I think its possible you have this problem in a lot of areas of your life.

Asking me if I would let you 'make love to me', 'take me home and **** me senseless', or 'bend over again so I can see your bum' in no way makes me think better of you. If I was interested in you, I would display this in some other way than asking you to leave the store. I am not at work for your amusement, or for you to hit on. Can I make this any clearer?

As for my collar. It is discreet. Most of the time, the buckle is tucked under my hair so it just looks like a chocker anyway. It is a symbol of the fact that I am comfortable with, and proud of, who and what I am. There is no reason to assume that it means I am either easy or 'making a statement'. Nor am I rebelling in anyway. It is not a 'phase', or just decoration. It is personal to me, and while I am happy to explain its symbolism to you, its impolite to ask. I don't ask you why you wear the absurd clothes that you do, or the ridiculous jewelry. At least mine is just plain black.

And finally, when I tell you something that you don't want to hear, for example, that we don't have any carrier bags, or that you can only purchase Lottery products with cash, I AM NOT LYING TO YOU. Why would I be lying about carrier bags? With all the effort I put in to be pleasant and polite, what makes you think that the words 'I'm very sorry but we are out of carrier bags' is actually me telling you that I am hiding them behind the till/out the back/up my ass. I am not trying to inconvenience you, I am letting you know something that is fact. There is no reason to lean over the till, into my personal space to check whether there are any bags there. And as for Lottery products, for as long as I have worked in retail, (6 years or so) LOTTERY HAS ALWAYS BEEN PAID FOR WITH CASH. It is store policy, and always has been. I am not denying you the right to a ticket or scratchcard, and I am not doing it for my own amusement. It is the way it always has been, and its just the way it is.

Oh, and one thing I forgot...


Your long suffering, friendly shop-girl.

Booking through Thursday

Booking Through Thursday

Mary wants to know...

  1. Do you keep a list of books to read? No, thou I keep a wish list of books, and a list of publication dates for the next book out in any series I'm currently reading. My reading schedule is too random for a list!

  2. Where do you keep your list (computer, PDA, paper, etc.)? Wish list....on amazon of course!!!! As for publication dates, they go on my calendar and in my diary *blushes*

  3. How often do you refer to your list? Every time you go for a new book to read? When book shopping? Or? Only when I really want to get a book in a series and cant remember the title really. I tend towards finding new authors in my local bookshop, and as for a book to read, I'll pick up the closest one to my hand, and if I haven't read it in the last 6 months, then I'll read it. Most of my books are on their 20th plus reading!

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Thursday Thirteen #7

Thirteen Things I like about living alone

1…I can eat cereal for dinner if I want to!!!!!

2...I never have to share chocolate.

3...If I dont want to wash up...I dont!!!!

4...If I want to go to bed at 7pm I can.

5...Conversly, if I want to stay up til 2am I can.

6...There's no-one to laugh at me when I'm wearing pink flannel jammies.

7...I can curl up with my teddy bear, and not have to worry about putting someones nose out of joint.

8...All descions about interior design are MINE and MINE ALONE

9...I never have to share chocolate (did I mention this before??? It bears mentioning twice!)

10...If I choose to spend 7 hours reading, no-one cares.

11...No-one steals my socks anymore!!!!!!!!

12...When I do wash up, its usually 2 plates, 2 cups, 2 sets of cutlery.

13...No-one can moan about the length of time I spend online!!!!!!

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Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Sometimes you just gotta scream


See, sometimes you just gotta!!!!!!!!

My bloods still boiling right now so I will do a real post later, but I just had to get that out!

Tuesday, November 07, 2006


I know, I've done it again, but I could resist it when I saw this pretty, next I just have to get some snowflakes in time for Christmas!!!!!!!

Monday Madness, a day late......D'OH

Using the letters in your name (first, last, both, whatever), describe your life!

T...Thankless (see previous posts that contain the phrase 'ex-husband')
E...Endlessly full of Chaos
R...Ridiculous at times
E...Eternal gratefulness (for my son!)

D...Dark (I have my moments!)
R...Risque (at least my sense of humour is!)
A...All over the place
K...Kindness of friends
E...Echoes of 'what could have been'

Does this make ANY sense??? If not, then I don't particuarally care!

Please note: I ma not responsible for any spelling mistakes, I am eating chocolate cake as I type!!!!!

Sunday, November 05, 2006

SHHHHHHH.............I have a secret

I do, honest, well actually I have lots, but this one is a biggy........

I have an infamous temper. I don't mean to but I can go and go and go and not lose my temper, and then one lil thing will send me insane............As in rip the lounge door of its bottom hinge insane........Its viscous and violent (and secretly, I love it, so much passion when I lose it, it reminds me I'm alive). Today, I got pushed over that edge, it was my own fault, I should have looked before I opened the document. HOWEVER, I DIDN'T BREAK ANYTHING........Not even a nail. I didn't even shout or lose it at the person who actually would have deserved the dressing down I so badly did.....This was cos of my secret you see, I have found an outlet for my oh so expressive temper!!!!!!! I would tell people what the secret to it is, but for one, its not gonna make me any money, so why bother, and two, its not something that is widely available due to my dislike of sharing things!

In other news.........A whole lot of nothing really.....My son's father has moved in with a woman he has known for 7 weeks and been seeing for 5 of them, my son's father is not a good father, and he is STILL coming onto me.......Now, I know I'm kinda hot at the moment, but come on.........I'm not that good...............I know this all too well today!!!!

Oh, and I baked today.........Which is a big thing for me, cos I haven't been able to afford ingredients for any non-essential cooking for so long that it was pure pleasure to bake a devil's food chocolate cake.....I may have to take some in to Graeme in the morning, he may need the chocolate by the school run!!!!!!!!!

So, other than explaining to my 5 yr old that 'daddies new family' (his words not mine) is not more important than him, and explaining to my parents that there's only so many hours in a day, and explaining to random staff members that I am ONLY A SUPERVISOR PEOPLE, and explaining to my ex-husband that I may have to hurt him if he doesn't buck his ideas up, and explaining to myself just why randomly attacking people is not allowed, its been a good weekend, full of cooking, food shopping and rearranging furniture.........Don't you wish you had my life???!!!!!

Friday, November 03, 2006


Firstly I must mention that I didn't get half of the things done I wanted to yesterday.......They have just had to be added to Monday's list............sometimes I hate my life!

Now on to the important announcements.......

Work got 19 cages in today.............and IT'S MY WEEKEND OFF I'm so thrilled!!!!!!!!!!

My boy brought his first homework home boy has's very exciting, I have to help him with some spelling, and some maths...........I'm really disproptionally excited about it all, but its a rite of passage and it shows how he's growing up!!!!

I finally fixed my's running right now, which means I actually only have to wash up a frying pan (from my bacon and tomatoes!)

Oh, and I've made Graeme's 'Featured Blog's' today.........very cool, I think at least...............may make me even more popular!!!!!

And, there's been nothing from my stalker since my post about her.............LOL!

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Thursday Thirteen #6

Thirteen Things on my 'to-do' list today.

1...Post my TT!!!!!

2…Housework, and LOTS of it. Washing up, washing, hoovering, and just everything!

3...Bill paying, especially my council tax.

4...Chat to my bank and see what is happening there!

5...Wash my hair. It is wild and unruly at the moment.

6...Cook dinner before the school pick up.

7...Drink more coffee (I had a bottle of wine last night, it was an accident thou!)

8...Find my work keys (gotta love the 5 yr old!)

9...Deal with my ex-husband, which is becoming harder everytime I see the ****

10...Take some sort of seditive BEFORE I see the ex.......just so that I don't actually kill him!

11...Go to work..........and before that PRAY that the s**t doesnt hit the fan before my shift, I just wanna go in and do my job, thats all!!

12...Buy bacon............I have a real letch on for a fry up, I've started DREAMING about one, I am officially crazy!

13...SLEEP, SLEEP and my son felt I should be up at 6:30am this morning!!!!

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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

So very tired

I thought I'd add another installement of my exciting, nail-bitingly tension filled life. I apologise in advance if it puts anyone to sleep!!!!!!!

I would have blogged last night, but I was just too tired.

I got into work and there were 8 cages of the 9 cage delivery that arrived at 8:30am. This shows you just a little how busy we were. I actually spent all of my 4 hours on the till, and I was supervising!!!!! In that 4 hours, my GA and I took £2597........£1100 and odd of that was from MY till, we were BUSY. REALLY REALLY BUSY. I was actually crazy in there. I know that it was halloween and all, but even so!!!!!!!!!

And thats actually about it. I cleaned for mum, moved furniture for my aunt, and tided my house, cooked dinner and played with my boy.

Thou I do have to mention the conversation I had as I was scrubbing the dirt off my boy the other morning...

Me: "WHERE did all this dirt come from? You've been SLEEPING"

Boy: "ummm.......internet?!"