Monday, October 30, 2006

I have a stalker!

I really do....perhaps stalker is the wrong phrase to use, but any one who visits my blog 11 times in less than an hour, and stays for 36 minutes is odd to say the least. I know who it is, but I'm not gonna name and shame them, cos I'm laughing too hard to be honest. Why would someone spend that much time here? Delving into my pyshie perhaps??? This is not the place I would post such things. Seeing whats going on in my life???? sounds reasonable, but really, I dont post anything THAT riviting.....honest I dont, even I know that!!!!! Perhaps they find my Thursday Thirteens and work life utterly fasinating............well, lucky them, I'm living my life and its not THAT thrilling!!!!! I am just beside myself with amusement to be honest, given that I'm a private person, why would I post things that are really winding me up or whatever on MY PUBLIC blog??????? Honestly, its absurd............but I thank them for putting a smile on my face at their expense, cos I was due a giggle......................and I really enjoyed it!

Monday Madness

1. From bev:
Small town or big city?

Small town, at the most, given a choice I would live in a tiny tiny rural village........but as I can't afford to move or be that far from a town that has shops with food in them, small town is what I have to put up with!

2. From turtlemoonwave:
Do you have a favorite childhood memory, and if so, would you share it?

I don't really, not a 'favourite' one, some nice ones, and some nasty ones, but not one of those memories that makes you feel warm inside.

3. From cat:
How do you calm down when something has really upset and/or angered you? Do you swallow it? Call a friend and rant? Go in the bathroom and cry? Punch a wall? Walk around muttering to yourself, complete with scary hand gestures?

All of the above, also, cause random destruction, verbally bite anyone who looks at me a funny way (or a normal way for that matter), chain smoke, and strop around!

4. From dna princess:
What attratcs you to memes?'

They are addictive!!!!!! I only tried one out for fun........and havent stopped!! They are like cookies!

5. From mads:
How reliant are you on computers to get through your day?

Actually, not really, sometimes I go days without turning it on, and then some days I'm on here all day!

6. From tizzie:
In a crisis, are you calm or do you panic?

(YAY, my question!) BOTH. I'm calm and coping on the outside, taking control if necessary etc. However.........inside, a BIG BALL OF PANIC!

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Thursday Thirteen #5

Thirteen Things on my wish list.

1...A Nindeno DS (I'm a 15 yr old boy at heart sometimes)

2...Wireless internet (I just wanna IM people from my bed!)

3...Sky Movies back......I MISS SKY MOVIES!!!!!

4...PEACE AND QUIET (its half term.....he's been home all week, and nothing I have tried today has got him dressed yet!)

5...The ability to do a full food shop. (ok, a daft thing to have on your wish list I guess, but frankly, I never have the money, and when I have got the money, I cant get the damn stuff home!)

6...To learn to drive (see above mentioned shopping!) I am now A SIZE SMALLER........I only have one pair of jeans that stay up!

8...a shower in my bathroom...........I just want to hop in, get clean, and hop out again, instead, I can never resist taking my time in the bath!

9...A garden..........or a house with a garden..........I want to be able to sit outside in a garden without looking like a freak for being sat on the concrete balcony outside!

10...To actually decorate this house. I've been here 3 years next month and only one room's been done so far.

11...a divorce.

12...more patience....I'm short on patience and long on temper this week.

13...more quality time with my son. Whilst I do enjoy my job, and love that he goes to school and loves it, I miss being a stay home mum, and I miss him!

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Wednesday, October 25, 2006


My first post of the day (I need to post my 'tackle' for this week) HAS to be about my shift last night. I was too tired to blog last night, cos as I got to work (early no less) there was a 9 cage delivery arriving.............yes, at 18:30 or there abouts, there was me, walking in to 9 cages and just me and Trish. So, being as insane as I am, I pulled in the cages and everything, and got stuck in at about 19:20. I knew I had about 2 1/2 hours so thought I'd see just how much I could do in that time. One of the cages was the cigarettes, so I simply handed them to Trish. Then I worked 5 cages completely. Not spotted, not just glanced at, actually worked. Admittedly I played it a little safe cos I didnt fancy having tons of backstock, so things only went out if I could get at least half of the case. But still, for one person to do that much is pretty damn good. This being said, I HAVE TO STOP DOING THIS. Its no wonder that people expect me to do so much, when I keep actually doing it, damnit. I think laziness might be in order this wait, I'm working with Graeme........we can't seem to help working when we're on weekends together............D'oh. So I guess I'll just be lazy tonight, and enjoy my last day off till next Wednesday!!!!!!

Oh, and to add to the chaos of today, had to take the boy for his booster jabs today..............that was not a good idea!!!! He hates me because I didnt explain that injections meant someone would be "putting pointy things in me". Bless 'im!

Monday, October 23, 2006

Monday Madness

1. From: cassie:Dramas or comedies?

Both, Love either, depending on my mood and how much wine I have with me!!!!!!!

2. From: nutmegnine:Your neighbor has frequent noisy parties on nights before you need to get up early. Do you confront him directly, call the police, call your landlord, join in the debauchery, or seethe quietly and do nothing?

Seethe quietly, and then play loud music early in the morning when I know they have hangovers!!!!

3. From sherle:Are you more comfortable in big crowds or small groups?

Small groups as a preference, thou I manage quite well in large crowds too.

4. From zeno:Do you prefer Internet Explorer or Mozilla Firefox?

Maxthon actually, I love the tabs and just, well everything about it really!

5. From briar:They say you learn something new every day. What new thing did you learn today?

That every smile you fake has a price!

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Weekend off.......WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!

The first, and most exciting thing to report is that IT IS MY WEEKEND OFF!!!!!!!! This, in actuality, means that I got up at 6:30 this morning, and was in Philip's car heading to Edward's football by about 8:40........but still, it is a weekend off. It also means that shortly I will be at my mothers, as Edward has been asking to see them all week, and its something to do that costs NOTHING.........NOTHING IS GOOD!!!!!!

The second piece of exciting news is something that I keep forgetting to tell anyone..........I HAVE LOST 1 AND 1/2 STONE IN THE LAST 12 MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY ME..........I am offically slimmer than I was at 18, so now I only have another 2 and a bit stone to go to get to my ideal excited am I???!!! The only downside is the fact that none of my jeans fit and I had to steal a pair off my sister cos mine keep falling down (not as fun as it sounds, trust me!)

I actually think thats about it. I'm making an effort to keep my emotions off of here for now, cos quite frankly, there are some people who check this blog quite regularly, if only to hear how depressed I might be and then I am definately denying them that satisfaction and getting on with things with.......wait for it........A SMILE ON MY FACE.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Thursday Thirteen #4

Thirteen Things I couldn't live without.

1. My son.


3. Chocolate.

4. My son.

5. Books.

6. My friends at work.

7. The few friends that have stood by my thru the last year.

8. My son (he crops up a lot!).

9. My collar ('tis a statement of part of my identity)

10. Sky TV.

11. Cuddles on a stormy night.

12. Thunder and lightening.

13. Being online (not that I've been doing that much lately.)

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Back, I think

ok, so you may have noticed the big-ass blogging hiatus. I just couldnt seem to get my head around blogging or anything else for that matter. HOWEVER.......I think that I should be able to manage the mindless task of putting details of my oh-so-boring life on here again, now that my emotions aren't overspilling into everything I try to say or do. Cos althougth I blog, I tend to wait until my emotions are under control before I do so, cos if they are under control I can talk about them without decending into my my hated state of snotty crying big mess. So I think I'll post a Thursday Thirteen and see how it goes from there!

Monday, October 02, 2006

An anniversary of sorts

I know that its been a little quiet on here of late. And here is why. This is a quote from my blog written on this day a year ago. The day that my husband moved out.

"Today is the big day.......I'm terrified.........Absolutely quaking in
my boots.........Whilst I KNOW deep down inside that I can do this, right now I
am panicking like mad..........He's still sleeping at the moment so I've decided
to leave him til he wakes.......Just that little more time to get my emotions
back under wrap before I have to face this."

So, I have been just a little reflective, as well as trying to sort out my own emotions, and things have been just a little crazy in my head. I've been floundering in chaos and confusion, all the while trying to keep a happy face on it all for both my son and the outside world. I haven't even been able to articulate my feelings with any sort of coherence to myself, let alone to others. I'm sure that people the world over have gone through what I am going through, but, as human nature dictates, it seems to me that I am all alone. And I know I'm not, but I also know that part of the problem I'm having right now is because I relied to heavily on others this time last year, when I should have been doing things myself. I've also been discovering a couple of things about myself, things that I'm not entirely proud of, and that is taking some adjusting to as well. It seems that I'm having to reassess every aspect of my life, every decsion I have made in the last 6 years, and every consequence of my actions. Its not a fun place in my head right now....But its getting better, it must be as I am able to actually load up the computer today.....Which is kinda new for this last couple of weeks. Also, I'm starting to make a couple of positive changes, as difficult as they may be.

So, I thought I would blog today, as today is a huge day for me, a big,scary, pit of tangled emotions, but also a huge day. And now I must away to chat to the neighbour's as if there is nothing going on and then to go into work and play pretend for a little longer.